Wednesday, March 31, 2010
having a grand time discovering how to take pictures of light tricks.
it's weird how i'm always itching to leave the house and go out, when the most inspiring and interesting books i've read are those which take place on the homefront. i guess the best realizations are those which hit close to home, or those which take place there. i'm yet to discover what staying at home can do to my perspective. i've been saying home too much haven't i.
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Tuesday, March 30, 2010
back in january, when life was easy. me with pageant contestants/friends. my make-upless face looks deathly pale compared to their lined in eyes.
i haven't a clue on what i want in life, and what i want from life. i'm a sad confused little kid. and it's upsetting.
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only lately have i come to appreciate not having anyone special in my life. for a year i've been restless wanting to fall in love and get things over with. for a time i've always felt that life alone was a life incomplete. only now am i able to enjoy the silence that comes with being alone. sometimes life is best dealt with on your own, without having to explain yourself all the time. now i am thankful to have moments of pure solidarity where i can think through things without any fogging confusion of another half of someone else's mind. i guess it is just timely that open another post in this old blog here since this time in my life for me is a beginning of sorts. i don't really get how in a span of days i've come to have a sudden change of perspective, but somehow tragedy (or accidents *hint hint*) clears out clutter in our minds and makes room for a new and more sensible way of thinking. now i am more grateful of the little that i have, and i no longer consume myself in the misery of envying those who have more than i.
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