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Tuesday, October 7, 2008

IM READING THE TWILIGHT SERIES.

and oh maaahn it's friggin' awesome. it's a mushy love-vampire story kids my age are into. i feel so attached to the story. like it's almost relatable. not cause im in love with vampire stupid, it's cause the situations and plotline feels strangely familiar. like the text in the book was voicing out the mess in my head, giving a clear picture of how i presently feel about things. but i wont go into detail about that. i'll just say that the books are awesome. im done with twilight and new moon, and ima read eclipse after finals (that is if i get to kiss jc's stupid swelas so i can borrow his book).

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TODAY I PLAN TO WASTE AS MUCH TIME AS POSSIBLE.
forget the fact that it's finals week. forget the fact that i'm still not done with my stat project.

here's one fact: i presently hate myself. like, so much.

i hate myself for always messing things up, for never letting things go my way, for not being able to say how i really feel. gaaah. i won't let this turn into another sob fest. i think it's pretty unusual for a sane person to cry everyday. im starting to get sick of being so mopey all the time. it's getting old. why do i always fuck up every chance each waking moment gives me?

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Wednesday, October 1, 2008

the stress is o-ver. and today is a holiday. i am super petiks, and im eating a lot. wuhoo. awesome.

we went over to wensy's place during break. we were supposed to go to rockwell but mutherfucker they didn't let students in uniform in the mall. and we've already been waiting for like an hour for the mall to open! ngawr. friggin' stoopid. i was about to give the guard a piece of my mind, when we decided to go to wensy's place instead. it was a good long walk away from power plant. we passed by my high school. went through an overpass. walked through scary trike drivers. all under the hot fuckin edsa sun. maaan we were so tired. we spent the break chillin over at wensy's. it was soo fun. and soo funny. we took wlid and kooky pictures. and we planned wensy's bday. we wrote it on her white board. haha.

a miracle happened yesterday. well, okay im overreacting. something special. dayuum. it's like it was plucked right out of my imagination. ding ding! that made my day.

but it cant go on like this. i swear it cant. im starting to relate a bit too well to bella in book 2; empty, depressed, mopey, sad. im reading it right now. apart from all the shit i have to study for finals. i just have to escape.

yey me!

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